Sarang Bakke Neun Molla

"I only know of love..."
Well, at least that is what the title means.

Love. Sarang. Ai. Hubb. Cinta.

What does these words actually means?

Judging by the look of it, one could consider it as one of the most valuable feeling in life. The moments spent with the loved ones seems like an endless fantasy, like you are being fed with ecstasy, that know no boundaries, but only creating the sense of intimacy.

Have I fallen in love? or should i say, Can i fall in love?

Before answering such question, won't it be better that we understand what's the priciple that lies behind this sensational emotions that people all over the world would actually do anything just to taste the gist of it?

Some say, love is beautiful. Others, love is blind. Also, love is difficult, painful, obsolete, curios,

harmful, childish and many other definition that people gave either based on their experience or the knowledge that they acquire.

How did it happen? Some face it in a very romantic, face-to-face confrontation, kind of love. While, some might experience it in a very peculiar manner, such as accidentally bump towards each other at one place and instantly fall in love at the first sight or after being provoked with so many assumption, that previously nothing occur between the two of them, till it become something out of those two.

Me? Guess how my 'love story' works. Actually, i was wondering, do i actually have a 'love story'?

Many would consider me as a type of guy, who is rather sensitive, or to put in a much better word, 'sentimental', has at least taste the bite of love cake in life. Judging by certain way i react, they might even perceive me as someone who has a lot of experience regarding to love since i speak so much or seems to understand so much about it.

To tell you the truth, there's only been 'monkey love' in my life, where nothing much like a human 'true love life', as it was only temporary.

There's two story behind it. I am actually rather resistant on continuing my effort on writing about my personal life, but i think i shold get certain things cleared out of my face and my life so that i could live a more peaceful life.

The first one, was rather a comparison between me and my friends of 'standard six'. At that time, i see many of my friends (not close friends though), had already got their couples and so forth (bad habit, can't resist of using these two words). So i thought, if others have their own partners, why should i be left alone? To make thing short, i found a girl in which i kind of like. Don't ask the description, not telling anyway, but it doesn't actually seems like a love story at all. Yeah, i was very immature at that time (just a quick announcement, i'm more matured now compared to then) but never had the chance to say it in front of her. But honestly, now when i think of it, it was rather stupid and i gain nothing from it. Since there was nothing to it, i mean NOTHING at all to it, and i have to transfer to Sabah, i'm happily leaving that life behind and ignore it for the rest of my life.

Then the second was when i was in Sabah. This time, it wasn't me, it was the surrounding. Have you heard that when a person, is oppressed or heavily influenced by his or her surrounding, the person will sooner or later go down wuth the influence. Well, basically, that's what happen. People start to 'join' us there and again and lastly, it just seem to happen. But still, honestly, don't think of anything else, or anything extravaganza, 13 years old is still way too immature for a love life. We didn't do anything out of the ordinary, and it all ended when i was again, have to move, and this time, ito Terengganu. At least this time, i have a bit of the emotions that arise when people are in love. The experience give me an overview on why people say that love is beautiful.

That's it. Nothing out of the ordinary. And now, listen up, this is rather the most important part of this lengthy post (truly sorry if it is too lengthy). Now or in Korean, chigum, or in Arabic, al-aan, or in Malay, sekarang, i have learn such a valuable lesson about love. Actually, i learn this while i was in form four and form five (no love story during these period).

Love is a precious gift that God have given to you. Whether you want it or not, it will soon arrive at your doorstep even if you're not prepare for it. Well, at least for love between human being. What i have learnt is that, true love among human can only be obtained if and only if there's the element of 'faith' towards God in it.

Loving another person, you'd probably want to live together forever and ever. That's is why many would 'seek' love before they undergone the marital stage. They think, that in order to be fully prepared for a marriage, you need to have a 'test drive' of it first. The desire to went out dating, having romantic time together, i dunno expecting to see each other all the time (hey, i don't have such experience okay) would need to be done before marriage.

But, let me ask everyone, even myself, in that case, after marriage, after having done so many things together, what else should there to be done?

Let's have a checklist; you've went out dating at the shopping complex, watching movies in the cinema together, having dinner at KFC, or any restaurants, exchanging presents ad gifts now and then, sometimes for no reasons at all, spending credits of prepaid to at least call each other once a day and other stuff. Hey, i'm not stopping anyone right here. I haven't got the right to tell what people should or should not do. Everyone have already mind of their own right?

But, honestly, would you be able to continue doing these activities after both of you set foot on the doorstep of marriage, especially, after soon having children and bigger family in life? Yes, it depends on the individual isn't it? Everyone is different, and have their own means of doing things.

I'm not saying that i'm stopping the passion of love that is burning in the mind and soul of those who are already in love right now. Do what you think is right to you, but as the saying goes, do human actually knows what they actually want in life?

I think i should end it here. Before that, i would to make several announcement.

1. I LET MY FATE REGARDING LOVE TO GOD AND I WILL TRY ACCEPT WHOEVER IT IS, BUT DEFINITELY NOT AROUD THESE TIME.

2. THERE'S NO ONE AND I DON'T HAVE THE INTENTION TO LET ANYONE ENTER MY REALM OF REALITY (LIKE WHAT I SAID NOT NOW)

3. PLEASE STOP ASSUMING THAT I AM IGNITING THE PASSION OF THIS FEELING BECAUSE I AM NOT.

4. MY WORDS ARE JUST ANOTHER FORM OF INFORMATION THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE WITH EVERYONE, AND NOT INTENDED TO HURT OTHERS, BUT TO ENLIGHTEN ONLY.

Rumi once said,

"If i love You, I love myself, If i love myself, I love You"
(note that this YOU, I referred it to GOD)

to be continued........