Nobody

X : Knock, knock!
Y : Who's there?
X : (Nobody)
Y : Hello?

Reminiscence

if there's a 're-'
then I'd choose reflect
if there's a 'de-'
then I'd choose defect
and if there's a must,
then,
i must choose not to dream that far.
Not now, nor ever.

I've left my footsteps behind,
yet bit by bit it came lingering,
in light would I be that kind,
but in pain it constricts and binds.

this path i wish not to follow
now i must abide, with or without sorrow
let my heart be in hollow,
so long i be the best of borough.

fantasy, dreams, imagination,
reality, screams, hallucination.
I'll lead this way with thorns and bugs,
though I'd prefer many corns and hugs,
nothing pays in the price of shrugs
with me being,
a piece amongst those worn out rugs.

Love may cure, it may also poison,
I seek to endure, God let it all moisten.

Distance

Yes. it is the furthest destination I'm going.
and i will do it wholeheartedly
i will use all of my strength to avoid that place, that space.
and yes, i know, it's going to be painful,
sad, frustrating.
hurtful, bad, and irritating.

because i've once chosen that road, that path, that intuition,
that track, that trace, that sensation.
yet God showed me otherwise
and with plain logic, He explains why.

"You don't belong here."
red sign boards, red stars,
red neon lights, red fluorescent moon,
red welcoming board, and the traffic light,
red.

it's the clearest premonition of all. distance, is no longer a brawl.


though my end and others remain the same,
i have to sought another plan,
though i may still linger and frown, that frame,
i have to have distance, and become a man.

this life is His, and His only. I'm just a passenger,with His grace, I'm not lonely.

It's never mine

Fresh air revolves
amongst the buds of pale coloured daffodils
of the greenery and the trees
and of birds and their chirps
a Spring to Spring, alive
the season of bloom

though flowers may seem lively,
and the sun shines so brightly,
still come the rain with all its might,
showers nor sprinkle alike,
reigning gloom upon the light
putting cheer out of sight

once the bulb blinking again,
I reach my strength and stand to regain,
things I thought I could own and touch,
and not having to have, to hold a grudge.

So wrong was I to think of such,
nothing in life is mine to rush,
I should have sit, or lie in hush,
in the end,
I wouldn't have to resent as much.

and the daffodils stood still and soft,
with the sky opens, aloft
those petals I thought I could just grab,
was never mine to hold,
and my Spring is now cold.

Moments too many can be recalled,
in words nor figures shall it falls,
May not I be the one for thee,
and thy for another,
May God still brings me the other,
though, regretfully,
thou may still be that another.

Never mine to take, never mine to own,
Life's a journey, God let me not be on my own.

The Broken Glasses,
H.Fayth

VISA APPLICATION UPDATE

1.08.2010

Good news everybody!!

VISA APPLICATION
DATE: 10.08.2010 (TUESDAY)
PLACE: FOYER WISMA MCA (GROUND FLOOR)
TIME: 8.00 AM


The date for VISA application has been fixed. I have made an appointment with VISA agency on 10 August 2010 for all 52 of you to be there. Both Mr. Earnest and I will be with you in KL to help you with the VISA application.. We will also give you the Offer Letters and other documents that are with us when we meet you in KL.

Listed below are all the things you need to do. Please read and understand all the instructions:


1. VISA APPLICATION –ON-LINE APPLICATION
IMPORTANT to apply on line. Please do so ASAP. Submit your application and save and print out a copy to bring with you.
http://www.visa4uk.fco.gov.uk/ApplyNow.aspx


Read the instructions carefully. Remember your password.

For PURPOSE: put PBS TIER 4 STUDENT (please check – this is last year’s info BUT I think it should be the same for this year)
For TYPE OF APPLICATION: put TIER 4 (GENERAL)(SPONSORED) STUDENT

HAVE YOUR PASSPORT WITH YOU. YOU NEED TO KEY IN THE PASSPORT NO.

HAVE THE ADDRESS OF UNIVERSITY OF WARWICK READY.
THE UNIVERSITY OF WARWICK
GIBBET HILL ROAD,
COVENTRY CV4 7AL
UNITED KINGDOM


________________________________________________________________________

VISA APPLICATION at WISMA MCA

BRING WITH YOU ALL YOUR DOCUMENTS AND A BANK DRAFT FOR RM 976.00 for the VISA atas nama VFS (Malaysia Sdn Bhd) – strictly no CASH) Duration for processing of VISA is about 7 days.


Things required for VISA application:
a. Passport size photo – white background
b. Passport
c. Photocopy of passport (page with information)
d. Financial Affidavit (Financial Guarantee) – original and photocopy
e. Bank draft RM 976.00 atas nama VFS (Malaysia Sdn Bhd)


Documents we will give you at Wisma MCA:-
Transcript
Certificate from BPG (habis kursus)
Letter of offer from Warwick
Police clearance letter
Letter of good conduct
Financial guarantee from BTP
Letter of confirmation of scholarship from BTP


HOW TO APPLY FOR BANK DRAFT
Go to any bank.
Ask for a set of forms to buy bank draft.
Fill in the necessary details, ask the clerk to check for you.
Amount RM 976.00 (you need to pay a small amount for commission)
Go to the counter when your no. is called.
Give them the money (or debit from your account)
Take from them the draft (check the details on the draft)



YOU HAVE TO ARRANGE YOUR OWN ACCOMMODATION WHILE YOU ARE IN KL.

VISA PAYMENT

This is the extract i've obtain from the

http://www.vfs-uk-my.com/payment.aspx,

the official website for Visa applications branch in Malaysia which HAVE BEEN POSTED, EMAILED FEW TIMES ALREADY by MS Jen and others. So PLEASE READ THIS THOROUGHLY and don't allow yourself to make careless mistake or ask questions which does not leave a good impression to yourself unless you are willing enough to pay RM976 for the second time and go through all the hassle all over again.

Channels of payment:

1. By CASH across all Alliance Bank Counters (NOT through the cash/cheque deposit machines)

2. By CASHIER'S ORDER/BANK DRAFTS issued from any bank and can be submitted at the VFS UK visa application centre and payable to "VFS (Malaysia) Sdn. Bhd." payable in Kuala Lumpur only.

3. By online fund transfer if you have an Alliance Bank savings or current account with personal internet banking access (alliance online PERSONAL) to Payee Corporation: VFS (M) S/B FOR UK VISA FEE, Account number: 14185-0-01-001313-7,


Please note: Options 1 to 3 are surcharge free. Applicants using options 1 and 3 must wait until the next working day after making their payment before submitting their visa application and supporting documents at the VFS visa application centre

For option 2 applicants can purchase a cashier's order/banker's draft from any bank and submit their visa application THE SAME DAY at the VFS UK visa application centre, during opening hours.

If i'm not mistaken, Ms Jen has already instructed us to NOT TO PAY for the VISA as yet until all forms have been filled in.

My opinions about the method of payment:

1. For me the first option is quiet a nuisance because you have to open up a new account with the Alliance bank, which is not so popular among us and the fact that most of (at least i would) be paying in bank drafts will make it more difficult if things don't go as planned.

2. the online option is a complete NO NO to me. For me, no matter how strong your connection is, things will easily get haywire when you are dealing with internet banking. I know i have my bit share of it when booking the tickets to Sabah. One common phenomenon is that after you have clicked the 'pay' button you'll have to wait a few minutes before it can suck in the money you have transferred. And most likely, during that time, the connection will either shut itself off or it will become very slow that you yourself choose to reload the page. Once you reload it, that's when the problem gets really annoying. You may ended up being considered as have not paid the fees and have to go through all the fiasco all over again and of course loose A HUGE AMOUNT of money. You'll need to have an Alliance acount which only add up to more headache.

3. Since we are all going down to KL, maybe perhaps it'll be easier if all of us, if possible pay by BANK DRAFTS at the VFS counters because:

1. All of us will be paying with the same method and if one of us face some problem we can solve it on the dot. Plus you might not get so nervous if yours is problematic

2. You can have the bank draft from any banks convenient to you which i think is very convenient since not all of us have the same choice of banks except for BSN.

That's all for now. Again as a REMINDER. PLEASE go to these websites,

http://www.vfs-uk-my.com/

OR

http://www.ukvisas.gov.uk/

AND READ!!!!!!!!! ABOUT THE VISA PROCESS. DONT BE SUCH A LAZY BUM WHO ONLY 'HEAR' THINGS FROM OTHERS AND DONT WANT TO CONTRIBUTE TO 'YOUR OWN' SUCCESS IN MAKING YOUR WAY TO WARWICK.

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENTS. PLEASE SPREAD TO OTHERS.

ATTENTION TO ALL TESL IPOH: THESE ARE SOME IMPORTANT DATES & INFO THAT EVERYONE MUST PAY ATTENTION:

1. WE WOULD BE PROBABLY DO OUR VISA AROUND 17 AUGUST. THEN AFTER 2-3 DAYS WE'LL GET IT.

2. 23 AUGUST IS OUR PRE DEPARTURE

3. THE ONLINE REGISTRATION FOR VISA IS NOT ONLY FOR A DAY

4. MS JEN WILL SEND US THE COPY OF CHARLENE'S VISA APPLICATION FOR REFERENCE WHILE SUBMITTING OUR FORMS LATER

5. FOR VISA, JUST SNAP THE PHOTOS REQUIRED AND DON'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT YET

6. THE DETAILS FOR OUR FINANCE WILL BE STATED IN OUR OFFER LETTER LATER

7. FOR FINANCIAL USAGE IN WARWICK, MOST SENIORS ARE USING DEBIT CARD. HOWEVER PRIOR TO OUR ARRIVAL THERE, WE WILL BE GIVEN TRAVELLER'S CHECK

8. FOR THE MEDICAL REPORT, EACH BLANK MUST BE FILLED. ASK THE DOCTORS TO FILL EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM. IF THEY ONLY GIVE YOU SLIPS OF YOUR RESULTS, PLEASE ASK THEM TO FILL IT FOR YOU. FOR SAFE KEEPING, AFTER EVERY DETAILS HAVE BEEN FILLED, MAKE A COPY OF IT.

9. PLEASE MAKE SURE THAT EVERY SINGLE FORM, DETAILS REQUIRED FOR OUR VISA, DEPARTURE OR ANYTHING RELATED, EITHER WE ALREADY RECEIVED OR WILL BE IS READ THOROUGHLY AND AVOID SILLY MISTAKES. FOR VISA, THE RE DO PROCESS OF IT WILL COST SOME HUGE AMOUNT OF MONEY

10.PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU READ ALL THE EMAILS BEING SENT BY MS JEN PARTICULARLY THE ONES THAT SHE ASKED US TO PRINT SOME FORMS.

11. FURTHER QUESTIONS, PLEASE POST ON MY WALL, OR INBOX. IT WILL BE SENT IN BULK TO MS JEN. DO NOT CONTACT MS JEN IN ANY WAY POSSIBLE, UNLESS YOU HAVE CRITICAL PROBLEMS THAT REQUIRES IMMEDIATE ATTENTION.

12. ALL THE DATES EXCEPT THE PRE DEPARTURE ARE YET TO BE REALLY CONFIRMED. THOSE WHO WILL HAVE TO TRAVEL PLEASE CONSIDER YOUR TICKETS/FLIGHTS TO BE PREPARED PRIOR TO THE DATES LATER CONFIRMED. PLEASE ADDRESS TO MS JEN IF YOU HAVE PROBLEMS REGARDING TO THIS MATTER.

BOOKS & NOVELS WISH LIST..

JUST WENT TO KINOKUNIYA, KLCC (9 JULY 2010) THIS MORNING & GATHERED A LIST OF BOOKS & NOVELS I WSIHED TO PURCHASE:

1. GADIS-GADIS KOTA RIYADH - RAJAA AL-SANEAA (RM37)

2. BUMI CINTA - HABIBURRAHMAN EL-SHIRAZI (RM25.90)

3. ISABELLA - MAULANA ... (RM22)

4. DENYUT KASIH MEDIK - DR. FARHAN HADI (RM 23)

5. LITTLE BOOK OF LANGUAGE - DAVID CRYSTAL (RM67)

6. COMPLETE KOREAN - (RM119)

TOTAL = RM294

It's just a list of dreams I may not be able to accomplish. Anyway, great achievements, starts from great desires.

That’s why we MUST love them more than others…

Cliché may it seems, but that’s the whole idea when it comes to discussing who should you literally and figuratively poured your metaphorically liquefied love. Most people would understand that, our love towards parents SHOULD & if not excessively stated, MUST be more than any other human beings, well of course after God and His Messenger.

Some people of certain community, not necessarily within a particular culture tend to disembark on a different journey, away from their parents after reaching a certain age. If others have their own reason on disagreeing to this statement, well I think everyone knows what suits their life the best.

Mine, I’m highly indebted with my parents even at the point where most likely shouldn’t be any more of a burden to them. To clear things out, it’s not something anyone would have wanted to do, some who’d arrived at the mature stage of their life of course. It’s just the matter of some tentacles of your body or your souls tends to outstretch accordingly and some still seeking ways of limiting themselves from any forms of exposure.

Anyway, just trying out my writing skills. It’s been a while, a VERY LONG While, since I’ve post anything on my blog. Leave comments as you wish. I’m hoping to put more effort on filling in my blog with a lot of other inputs.
Cheerio.

Take a break...

Recently reported in the Massachusetts Bar Association Lawyers Journal, the following are questions actually asked of witnesses by attorneys during trials and, in certain cases, the responses given by insightful witnesses:

1. "Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?"

2. "The youngest son, the twenty-year old, how old is he?"

3. "Were you present when your picture was taken?"

4.. "Were you alone or by yourself?"

5. "Was it you or your younger brother who was killed in the war?"

6. "Did he kill you?"

7. "How far apart were the vehicles at the time of the collision?"

8. "You were there until the time you left, is that true?"

9. "How many times have you committed suicide?"

10. Q: "So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8 th?"
A: "Yes."
Q: "And what were you doing at that time?"

11. Q: "She had three children, right?"
A: "Yes."
Q: "How many were boys?"
A: "None."
Q: "Were there any girls?"

12. Q: "You say the stairs went down to the basement?"
A: "Yes."
Q: "And these stairs, did they go up also?"

13. Q: "Mr. Slatery, you went on a rather elaborate honeymoon, didn't you?"
A: "I went to Europe, Sir."
Q: "And you took your new wife?"

14. Q: "How was your first marriage terminated?"
A: "By death."
Q: "And by who's death was it terminated?"

15. Q: "Can you describe the individual?"
A: "He was about medium height and had a beard."
Q: "Was this a male, or a female?"

16. Q: "Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice sent to your attorney?"
A: "No, this is how I dress when I go to work."

17. Q: "Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead people?"
A: "All my autopsies are performed on dead people."

18. Q: "All your responses must be oral, OK? What school did you go to?"
A: "Oral."

19. Q: "Do you recall the time that you examined the body?"
A: "The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.."
Q: "And Mr. Dennington was dead at the time?"
A: "No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy."

20. Q: "You were not shot in the fracas?"
A: "No, I was shot midway between the fracas and the navel."

21. Q: "Are you qualified to give a urine sample?"
A: "I have been since early childhood."

22. Q: "Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?"
A: "No."
Q: "Did you check for blood pressure?"
A: "No."
Q: "Did you check for breathing?"
A: "No."
Q: "So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?"
A: "No."
Q: "How can you be so sure, Doctor?"
A: "Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar."
Q: "But could the patient have still been alive nevertheless? "
A: "It is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law somewhere."

taken by,

"Sallehuddin Ishak" sallehuddinishak@yahoo.co.uk

from,
http://theuniverse. bizarrearea. com/lawyer- stupid-questions .php

welcome back...

konnichiwa minna san..

it's been a while since i've posted anything on this blog of mine. i nearly forgot that i actualy have something on the cyber world.

Well, i have a few reasons why "Welcome back" is chosen for my post...

1. well, it's new year already, goddbye 2009, welcome 2010 (although it's supposed to be just welcome, it suits, i guess)

2. well, 2010 means, i'm back at school already. venturing new things this last semester (scary...)

3. my laptop is healthy again after 3 quarter of 2009 suffered from a hardware malfunction. (i'll try to take good care this year)

well that's from me, new year resolution, "to be short and brief"

Hope everythings fine this year......

ja na, minna san

Stupidly enough

If stupidity comes from the word stupid, then idiotic would definitely come from the word idiot.

So what's the problem then?

Nothing. Even the word stupid itself is okay simply because it only explains about a condition where people acting irrationally on something. as for me, i did all the stupid things i could get my hands off.

Although knowing how stupidly i will turn out to be in debate, i stupidly indulge myself into it. Knowing that i have endless talks and love to actually spit everything out non stop, i stupidly continue to do talk the stupid talk.

The best part of all, knowing stupidly that i can't bear with many things, still, i stupidly take in charge of the whole cohort. Stupid isn't it?

anyone, or whosoever willing to read my blog, do u think that i am stupid enough to actually be a leader?

sorry, i can't think of any stupid things anymore.

Man ana?

Who am I actually?

Looking through life, to and fro, not others life but my own. I wish I could say that I'm living a decent life right now. 'Decent' here mean that I have yet to acquire certain characteristics in which I should already have.

Comparing myself with others, although might say that i shouldn't compare, still, the comparison had enlightened me with numerous things.

While some struggle so much to obtained what they want, or give it the best while doing things they like the most, me? I stood staring blankly at them, envious, yet doing nothing to at least learn some lesson out of it.

Others, working so hard to make life easier but me? I don't think i even know how to actually appreciate things. Laptops, shoes, shirts, handphones, mp3, watches. In all my life i'm not quite sure why i'm not deeply attach to it. Some people had also receive things from others and yet they treasure it deeply. Why is it so hard for me?

Apart from that, why is it so hard for me to be independent, standing on my own? Molla, jal morumnida (i really don't know).

Then, after all of these, i'm still feeling envious with others seeing they're living happily. What am i actually?

Jinjja, na nappun namja ya. (Really, I'm truly a bad person)

i have nothing but TALKing a lotttttttttttttttttttttt.

Can't drive a bike, don't have the guts to drive the car, very poor public relationship, self-centered, what else do i actually have?

A moment to remember....

Salam....


How's life everyone? Good? Bad? Having a tough time surviving in this world?



I don't know. For me, i'm considering myself to be experiencing both of them. Because i see or should i say, God inspired me, that whatsoever happens in life, it is supposed to be treasured and not be ignored.



There's a verse from Al-Quran stating that, things we think it is good for us, might be actually bad for us, while, things in which we assume is bad for us, might be essential to us.



Come to think of it, isn't it true?



I've seen people or should i say watch some dramas and movies where some people most likely had to endure life in the utmost alien condition whereas they have to strive and suffer till the end of their last breath.


A very good example of it would be, the J-drama or Japanese Drama, Ichi Ritoru No Namida or One Litre of tears. It is a story about how a very young girl suffers from spinocerebellar antaxia (i don't know correct or not the spelling) in which she will be slowly losing control of her body simply because of some part of her brain is degenerating day by day.

http://www.mysoju.com/1-litre-of-tears/

It begins, when she realizes that she often stumbles when she walks, and that many weird things happen to her that other youngsters around her did not face.





One part of the story shows that, due to her condition, she had to trouble her friends and family and that she had always says "Gomenasai ('m sorry)" as she felt she is being troublesome to people around her. Then, one day, her mother encourages her that she must go on with life no matter what happens and always appreciate others. From asking for forgiveness, she then says to people, "Arigato (Thank You)".





One Korean Movie entitled , "A moment to remember" (what an irony), is a story about how a twenty seven years old woman, suffer from alzheimer. Her hsuband did everything not to loss her till the end. He even said, "Why should your soul be forgotten? I will remember things for you."

http://www.mysoju.com/a-moment-to-remember/

If you guys have the time to watch these two great entertainment, do watch. Seriously, do watch it. Both of them left great impacts towards me on my views towards life.





Not just that. I think what happens to those two characters, and also to many others around the world are a sign that God is giving us the chance to be closer to Him in a very sentimental manner. There is a saying that men would only treasure something only after they lose it. Losing things that is precious to us would help us to be more independent and also hopeful to God that He will guide us through all the hardships that we had to endure before the day of judgement comes. Usually, men would seek God if they are broke, so if those who had to undergone such experience, let us hope that their faith towards God is strong and that they did not lose their hope until the day they die.

"God didn't promise that life is going to be easy.

But He did promise that He will be accompanying us all the way through, if we want Him to"

p/s: Just clisk to the links and you will be directed to the page where you can watch the drama and movies online.

Life like this...

Annyong...

Chal chinae yo? (How are you guys doing?)

Me? Just doing fine, doing quite great actually, only a few coughs here and there, nothing much.

This time, i would like to share my views upon things that happened around me. It's funny that as you grow older and older you tend to take into serious consideration about changes that occur in your life. Among those changes i see one particular thing that i think it is good to be talked about, and have a say of it.

Have you guys ever wonder why certain catastrophe or bad things happens to you, and only you and not towards other person? To me, i had always believe that when such thing occur, it is best for me to not to pin point the faults or the reasons towards other people, but to reflect upon yourself what have you done either in the past or present.

I have experienced a few bumps in my life and i know it occur either because of my fault or that is just God wanted to put me into a test so that i could be a better person. When it comes to facing challenges, people often try their hardest to not blame or should i say refer to themselves first and would likely to point at others before themselves. Apart from that, many would love to act upon this word...... A. S. S. U. M. P. T . I . O . N.



They assume that they are actually the one who is being oppressed, bullied around, picked upon and many other terminologies that is related to it. But, if we look hard into ourselves, is it true that such things really occur, or is it just our "perceived disagreement"?

People say they are all fussed about when their requirements, desires, hopes and needs are not up to their standard. They demand things to go according to their own way. Well, people could thing as such if they want to, but do bear in mind that this life is not yours, it had never been, nor it never has, and definitely it never was. Your path had been planned out for you, and if you choose to take the wrong road, then go on. No one's stopping you.

Coming back on the "being fussy" issue, i would like to ask another sincere question, if you really want life as what you want it to be, tell me, if other ask of the same thing, did you or did you not meet up to their standards as well? If you do, thank goodness, if not, it is better for us to think who we actually are before demanding on certain things that sometimes it is not ours but we think it is ours.

For some, they would also demand other to 'change' according to what they 'assume' is supposed to be. For example, a person should not be demanding on certain things and should always consider other point of view when it comes to decision making. Or some would also say that, "You should treat people more politely, than what you are doing right now." or something like that.

This two examples brought up two inquiries that we should answer. the first one is, "If we want other to change, shouldn't we too do the changes to ourselves?". Secondly, "Should a person be as who he or she was, or should they change simply because we ask them to change?" The second question arises, as people had often use these phrase, "Be your self". So tell me, what does that phrase actually pin pointing out?

I would like to share one more point of view, but maybe perhaps later simply because, "learning is a process, and it is done rather in a step-by-step manner".

I do hope that we all can actually learn, if not everything at least something from this post of mine.



p/s: This post is only intended for us to do some 'check and balance' to me myself and for others as well. No intention on pulling down or mocking or bringing hurt or dissatisfaction towards people who read this post.

Sarang Bakke Neun Molla

"I only know of love..."
Well, at least that is what the title means.

Love. Sarang. Ai. Hubb. Cinta.

What does these words actually means?

Judging by the look of it, one could consider it as one of the most valuable feeling in life. The moments spent with the loved ones seems like an endless fantasy, like you are being fed with ecstasy, that know no boundaries, but only creating the sense of intimacy.

Have I fallen in love? or should i say, Can i fall in love?

Before answering such question, won't it be better that we understand what's the priciple that lies behind this sensational emotions that people all over the world would actually do anything just to taste the gist of it?

Some say, love is beautiful. Others, love is blind. Also, love is difficult, painful, obsolete, curios,

harmful, childish and many other definition that people gave either based on their experience or the knowledge that they acquire.

How did it happen? Some face it in a very romantic, face-to-face confrontation, kind of love. While, some might experience it in a very peculiar manner, such as accidentally bump towards each other at one place and instantly fall in love at the first sight or after being provoked with so many assumption, that previously nothing occur between the two of them, till it become something out of those two.

Me? Guess how my 'love story' works. Actually, i was wondering, do i actually have a 'love story'?

Many would consider me as a type of guy, who is rather sensitive, or to put in a much better word, 'sentimental', has at least taste the bite of love cake in life. Judging by certain way i react, they might even perceive me as someone who has a lot of experience regarding to love since i speak so much or seems to understand so much about it.

To tell you the truth, there's only been 'monkey love' in my life, where nothing much like a human 'true love life', as it was only temporary.

There's two story behind it. I am actually rather resistant on continuing my effort on writing about my personal life, but i think i shold get certain things cleared out of my face and my life so that i could live a more peaceful life.

The first one, was rather a comparison between me and my friends of 'standard six'. At that time, i see many of my friends (not close friends though), had already got their couples and so forth (bad habit, can't resist of using these two words). So i thought, if others have their own partners, why should i be left alone? To make thing short, i found a girl in which i kind of like. Don't ask the description, not telling anyway, but it doesn't actually seems like a love story at all. Yeah, i was very immature at that time (just a quick announcement, i'm more matured now compared to then) but never had the chance to say it in front of her. But honestly, now when i think of it, it was rather stupid and i gain nothing from it. Since there was nothing to it, i mean NOTHING at all to it, and i have to transfer to Sabah, i'm happily leaving that life behind and ignore it for the rest of my life.

Then the second was when i was in Sabah. This time, it wasn't me, it was the surrounding. Have you heard that when a person, is oppressed or heavily influenced by his or her surrounding, the person will sooner or later go down wuth the influence. Well, basically, that's what happen. People start to 'join' us there and again and lastly, it just seem to happen. But still, honestly, don't think of anything else, or anything extravaganza, 13 years old is still way too immature for a love life. We didn't do anything out of the ordinary, and it all ended when i was again, have to move, and this time, ito Terengganu. At least this time, i have a bit of the emotions that arise when people are in love. The experience give me an overview on why people say that love is beautiful.

That's it. Nothing out of the ordinary. And now, listen up, this is rather the most important part of this lengthy post (truly sorry if it is too lengthy). Now or in Korean, chigum, or in Arabic, al-aan, or in Malay, sekarang, i have learn such a valuable lesson about love. Actually, i learn this while i was in form four and form five (no love story during these period).

Love is a precious gift that God have given to you. Whether you want it or not, it will soon arrive at your doorstep even if you're not prepare for it. Well, at least for love between human being. What i have learnt is that, true love among human can only be obtained if and only if there's the element of 'faith' towards God in it.

Loving another person, you'd probably want to live together forever and ever. That's is why many would 'seek' love before they undergone the marital stage. They think, that in order to be fully prepared for a marriage, you need to have a 'test drive' of it first. The desire to went out dating, having romantic time together, i dunno expecting to see each other all the time (hey, i don't have such experience okay) would need to be done before marriage.

But, let me ask everyone, even myself, in that case, after marriage, after having done so many things together, what else should there to be done?

Let's have a checklist; you've went out dating at the shopping complex, watching movies in the cinema together, having dinner at KFC, or any restaurants, exchanging presents ad gifts now and then, sometimes for no reasons at all, spending credits of prepaid to at least call each other once a day and other stuff. Hey, i'm not stopping anyone right here. I haven't got the right to tell what people should or should not do. Everyone have already mind of their own right?

But, honestly, would you be able to continue doing these activities after both of you set foot on the doorstep of marriage, especially, after soon having children and bigger family in life? Yes, it depends on the individual isn't it? Everyone is different, and have their own means of doing things.

I'm not saying that i'm stopping the passion of love that is burning in the mind and soul of those who are already in love right now. Do what you think is right to you, but as the saying goes, do human actually knows what they actually want in life?

I think i should end it here. Before that, i would to make several announcement.

1. I LET MY FATE REGARDING LOVE TO GOD AND I WILL TRY ACCEPT WHOEVER IT IS, BUT DEFINITELY NOT AROUD THESE TIME.

2. THERE'S NO ONE AND I DON'T HAVE THE INTENTION TO LET ANYONE ENTER MY REALM OF REALITY (LIKE WHAT I SAID NOT NOW)

3. PLEASE STOP ASSUMING THAT I AM IGNITING THE PASSION OF THIS FEELING BECAUSE I AM NOT.

4. MY WORDS ARE JUST ANOTHER FORM OF INFORMATION THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE WITH EVERYONE, AND NOT INTENDED TO HURT OTHERS, BUT TO ENLIGHTEN ONLY.

Rumi once said,

"If i love You, I love myself, If i love myself, I love You"
(note that this YOU, I referred it to GOD)

to be continued........

Understanding Art: Drama

Bonjour

Dramas had been one of many type of entertainment that allow viewers to go through along with the story a bit more details compared to yonghwa (movies/film in Korean language). Still, the impact is just as similar as movies or films. Dramas usually ranges from romance, comedy, humanity, school, and it also usually combine two to three of these elements.

For this post, i would like to share three dramas, in which comes from the same origin, but had been interpreted as well as influenced by the production geographical factors, such as language, culture and etc.

Meteor Garden (Taiwan version), Hana Yori Dango (Japanese Version) and Boys Before Flower/Boys Over Flower (Korean Version) all share the same storyline where a group of spoiled youngsters form a group called 'F4' and they were the one that 'controls' their educational institute (most of them are still students, only on different levels) with their money and influence. Again this is just the introduction of on how should we understand dramas as part of art.

Here are some pictures of them,

Meteor Garden

Hana Yori Dango

Boys Before/Over Flowers

p/s: Just a note, some individuals concluded that among these three, 'Meteor Garden', was the closest interpretation (the storyline) to the original manga, while 'Hana Yori Dango' have their characters' personality as close as the characters in the original manga and that 'Boys Before/Over Flowers' have the most good looking 'F4' compared to others.

I've changed (a bit)

Konnichiwa minna san

So how do you find my blog new face? i do hope it's not too childish. just want to get rid of that stiffness around me. let's hope for more changes in the future. maybe with pictures and others. I intend to do as such, but......... (feel free to guess why)

This is also one of my first step to change into a better person. Fate, Gambate kudasai!

By the way, after this it is going to be fate for me, so please call me with the name 'fate', no specific reason, just my cyber world nickname.

Ja, ittakimasu minna. Otsakurasama deshita (Job well done, I think that is what it meant)

Too academic? Really?

ola everyone

this few days i heard people said my blog is a bit too academic. Well actually i am trying not to be that academic, but i don't know just can't resist the idea of discussing matters in an academic manners i.e with examples and relevant details to it. Good news everyone, i'll try a bit harder to be a bit more casual after this, like what i'm trying to on my personality.

Have it come across your mind, that at certain point in your life, you haven't undergone much changes be it in your mentality, or personality or even appearance. regarding to this issue, i think, there are two main opinions about it; one stated that you should just be your own self and the other would demand you to change. If you were given such question, which one would you think best suit yourself?

i'm still in the dilemma of such ambiguities. actually, i would like to have or to acquire a gentleman personality, which include, speaking rather politely with a lot of charming gestures here and there and that his articulation bring peace to others and not bringing a disturbing atmosphere. Maybe i was asking too much. i'm not saying that i'm not grateful for who i am, but it is just that i realise certain issues i need to clear out or to at least reaching the point where i have to behave accordingly to my age.

it is the fact about being grateful or not, it is the fact that i have yet to know myself thoroughly. in addition to that, i have this initial kind of thing where people around me are being (this is just my view) rather sceptical about me trying to change to a better person.

For example, well basically i know i'm the kind of person who usually make or try to make jokes in which is usually lousy so that others could laugh around. still, at certain time,i was being rather serious and i hope others will respond accordingly, but unfortunately, they didn't.

not expressing any depression just saying out loud what i'm thinking right now. evenhough stil in the dilemma, i do hope that i become a better person each day.

Do leave out your comments for this post. It would mean tremendously lot to me.

au revoir

Understanding Art: Prologue

Marhaban bikum (that's hello in arabic, kind of)

Jiggling here and there, i found out that i was unable to think of anything to write for the time being. Sachilya ('actually' in Korean Language) i was thinking of sharing several tips on how to analyse a song. Still, such interesting topic needed a few things to be considered and myself is not that prepared to jot down lengthy words for the time being.

Maybe perhaps i should share something a bit more light, not to say that light, or light itself, maybe a prologue about how to analyse the song.

It is as if a nature kind of thing when human being listen to songs or music and get attracted to it. Yes, and i would agree on that very much. How the song enlighten your gloomy day, enhance your happiness, provoke negative emotions and other effects songs and music have to human is one of a few reason why certain aspects about these two should be taken into consideration. Perhaps not towards a very scrutinize consideration, but just enough with having a thought about it.

Okay today i would like to share an OST (Original Sound Track) of a famous drama series (Korean Drama) entitled Boys Before Flowers or some translated it Boys Over Flowers. Let's take a look at the lyrics, (for the prologue purpose, i include only an english version of this song, taken from youtube.com)

'Because I'm Stupid'

Because i'm so stupid and such a fool,
my eyes don't see nobody but you,
eventhough i know you love someone else,
You could never know the pain that i felt, ohh...

You probably never think of me at all,
and i know we have no memories,
but the one who really wants you is me,
in the end only my tears will fall

I stay, you walk away,
i stand back watching you day by day
you can't see that i'm so in love with you,
like the wind you just fly right through, ohh...

(chorus 1)
There are days when i just miss you so much
there are days when i just long for your touch
'i love you' somehow flies right off my lips and so,
once again, i'm left crying for you
once again, i'm left here missing you
baby, i love you, i'm waiting for you

You'll probably have never dream of me,
and i know i'm in love all alone
that's why we don't really have memories,
in the end, i'l make them on my own

love's like a river of tears,
that will flow whenever you're not here
eventhough your heart will never be mine,
it's enough just seeing you smile, ohh...

(chorus 2)
there are days when i see nothing but rain,
there are days when i feel so much pain,
'i miss you' somehow flies right off my lips and so,
once again, i'm left wishing for you,
once again, i'm left here missing you,
baby, i love you, i'm waiting for you

Bye, bye never say goodbye,
Eventhough its not me by your side,
i need you, i just can't say it but i want you,
i cannot stop wishing for you

there are days when i just miss you so much
there are days when i just long for your touch
i love you' somehow flies right off my lips and so,
once again i'm left crying for you

repeat chorus 2

just try to observe the lyrisc first. Later i'll share with you you guys my personal view about this song particularly and songs and music in general context. i wish to include the audio but some technical problem occur, but to those who know the tune, do enjoy yourself with it.

we've done 'goodbyes' in Hangu Go and Nihon, for today let's end it in French, Au revoire.